You, steady as a rock!

This morning I remarked to Sum1 that I am getting older by a year.

He said: Takpela, dah nak kawen pun *grins*

I said: Its got nothing to do with kawen la. Ish dia ni kan…*grins*

Hem. I understand what he meant. That most women feels a bit uncomfortable when reaching a certain age and not meeting The One yet. Well, its understandable. Because i used to be one of them. its a scary thought, living life alone. And you feel like life has no purpose. And sometimes you feel like God tests you, like, non stop. Till one day you just dropped, feeling like you cannot take no more.

Like, i used to ponder, of all people, why did He chose me to undergo such hardship like this (e.g. break up, debt, acne, death)? I did not get immediate answer, but gradually it came to me.

That He choses you to test because of all the people involved in your “testing environment” (hehe using an IT term), you are the most able to endure it, and most likely to respond in a positive way. Yang lain tu mungkin would break under pressure, could go mad or crazy, or just plain nutcase, or siap masuk hospital sebab sakit, but you, will remain steady as a rock, although at first you crumbles from the pressure, but oh you will bounce again, yes you will. Maybe higher than before, waaaay higher than those in your “testing environment”. Usually that’s the case.

you will be a real winner. Although in the short term, looks like you lost everything-

…only to gain more.

But if this person doesnt come along that fast (or maybe later), well you just enjoy the ride, its life.

i observed this.not out of smugness, but out of a humbling experience.

So  if you must, be sad and mourn for a while, let your grief works itself out, just enjoy your life, give more (you could start by volunteering ), and love yourself more (like shop for great looking outfits, and spa treatment) , and I see that no amount of La Mer cream will match your beauty glow. Beauty inside, that is.

So all the courage, faith, wisdom and happiness in the world to you all!

You, steady as a rock!

in certain cases, imagining people that hurted you look like this really helps in recovery. hehe

 

I dont mean Justice Bao

Something happened that made me feel justice is served.

And when some one was mean, you could either retribute or just let nature serves the justice. Justice could come in many ways, like if a girlfriend left a nice but career-building-phase-boyfriend to search for a richer boyfriend, only to find herself marrying a rich man who is never home to spend time with her. Tck.

In my case, sometimes I let the nature serves the justice.

And the justice is so sweet, as sweet as splenda.

 I like justice but yet this does not mean I Iike the series Justice Bao.

 I dont mean Justice Bao at all.